regret. guilt. privilege. honoured.

Recently I was talking to a ex-leader who was under me. I felt really bad that i didnt lead the person to choose the right course resulting in him not being able to pursue the course that he wanted. I felt that i was too short sighted and close minded.. But I know that I have given my best at that point in time.I pray that God will rectify this and turn the situation around.

After this incident, i started to reflect on my leadership... so many regrets... so many "I could have", "I wish I did this and that"... and "If I can do it all over again, i will ...". But of course, time can never be turned back.

I realised what a heavy responsibility it is to take care of God's flock. Lead them well and they will flourish and grow. Lead them badly and it will affect their lives. Instead of saying "I could have..", I want to say "I will do it now.." At the same time, I'm amazed at the priviledge God has given us to take care of His flock. To partner with him to grow and nurture his sheep!

I pray that
I will value his sheep as how He will value each.
I will love them as how He will love.
I will guide them as how He will guide.

Honoured...

"Who am I, O Sovereign LORD, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far? And as if this were not enough in your sight, O Sovereign LORD, you have also spoken about the future of the house of your servant. Is this your usual way of dealing with man, O Sovereign LORD?" 2 Samuel 7:18-19