Had a good talk with Ps Jeff yesterday. I've shared with him about how I felt and the "waiting thing" that I sense God speaking to me. I know that this is a time of growth for me. All my life I have been so impulsive, jumping into whatever seems good and exciting without giving careful thought as to if that is what God has meant for me? I m only young once, don't want to live my life carelessly. This is my resolution of the year - to wait upon God before making any major decisions. To leave an unhurried life. Slow is not a bad word, Ee lee!

Horizontal Versus Vertical by Os Hillman, January 25, 2006

Glancing this way and that and seeing no one, he killed the Egyptian and hid him in the sand. - Exodus 2:12Moses saw the pain of his people. He saw the bondage and the injustice. His heart was enraged, and he decided he would do something. He would take matters into his own hands. The result was murder. The motive was right, but the action was wrong. He went horizontal instead of vertical with God. Moses fled to the desert, where God prepared the man who would ultimately be the deliverer of a nation. But it took 40 years of preparation before God determined Moses was ready. He was a professional businessman-a sheepherder. It was during the mundane activity of work that God called on him to be a deliverer.Moses was like a lot of enthusiastic Christian workplace believers who seek to solve a spiritual problem with a fleshly answer.

The greatest danger to the Christian workplace believer is his greatest strength-his business acumen and expertise to get things done. This self-reliance can become our greatest weakness when it comes to moving in the spiritual realm. We're taught to be problem solvers. But, like Moses, if our enthusiasm and passion are not harnessed by the power of the Holy Spirit, we will fail miserably. Peter had to learn this lesson too. His enthusiasm got him into a lot of trouble. But God was patient, just as He is patient with each of us. Sometimes He must put us in the desert for a time in order to season us so that Christ is allowed to reign supreme in the process.

Before you act, pray and seek the mind of Christ until you know it is God behind the action. Check it out with others. You may save yourself a trip to the desert.

We had a team lunch to celebrate one of my colleague June's birthday. Went to Fish & Co and the food is so sumptuous. A picture paints a thousand words so here you go

Fish and chips.. its so crispy on the outside and tender on the inside with melted cheese on it.

Doesnt she looks like the spokesperson for fish and Co. The mud pie is sinfully good. Warm, rich chocolate on the spongy mud pie coupled with icy vanilla ice cream.. who can resist?

Lunar New Year 's coming!
Its so predictable every year. We will visit our grandma on the first day then watch movie with my cousins. Second day we will go for more visitations. Eat alot, watch TV and play lots of cards games.

Can this year be different?
I pray that i'll be sensitive to Him, to be His mouth piece and witness.
To reach out to my distant cousins and bring them for the friendship SS.
To build a stronger family bond thru this time of reunion.

God, let this be a meaningful CNY!

just came back from the hope-filled LC. I was filled with hope and refreshed once again :)
Before i went to this LC, i wanted God to give me a clearer direction/vision as to what He wants me to be. I was feeling lost and frustrated.. lost in the mundane.

During one of the worship, God impressed in my heart a vision of a traffic light. The light was red and the word "WAIT" came to me. If you know me, i m a very impatient person, a doer. And this is quite tough for me. Holy Spirit reminded me that "I am your creator, I know what you are created best to do. " Thus I need to learn to trust in Him and wait upon God. In quietness and trust is my strength.

Then during another session, freedy and i were praying for each other. I saw a compass pointing North while we were praying. The Lord impressed in my heart that He is the "North". Fix our eyes on Him, He will lead us to where He wants us to be. I told Freedy what i saw.

Amazingly, Freedy had a vision of a boat on a rough sea in a thunder storm. The boat was quite aimless and the situation adverse. Then Freedy asked God "so how". That's when i shared with him about the compass.

And both images clicked. And both spoke to our situation.

Amazed!

So many reminders through the teaching. To sum it all, i want to piroritise divine guidance above all. To seek God! Sounds simple but truly powerful.

I will blog down the rest as a reminder to myself when i think through again.

I had a day off yesterday!
Debbie and I planned to go swimming in the morning but it was raining.
Then the rain stopped and just as we were about to leave our place, it started raining again.
So we changed our plan to go gym instead.
I am amazed at how dedicated we are to working out...hahaa
it was raining cats and dogs yet we made our way to the gym! Well done!

After gym, i went to meet my sister to go facial.
my face is disastrous.. recently there is lots of lumps on my face (not sure what that is and its not pimples) and more moles. It was so bad that the beautician asked if i washed my face regularly!! So sad :( Apparently my outer face skin is dry but my inside is oily.. if you get what i mean.. She used a scissor to cut the lump and there is white past coming out.. GROSS!! She commended that there are too many "lumps" and that it will spread.. scary man.. So in the end i have to pay additional to remove all these nuisances. It's painful especially removing the black heads. After the session, she "begged" me to go back monthly.. hahaa.. i think my face must have been in a very bad condition. Anyone wanna go facial? haha

Blogging on a tues afternoon with dark eye rings. I have not seen such dark eye rings for a long time. Have not been having sufficient sleep lately... why? late night mahjong.. serves me right.. hahaa

I seems to have a very short term memory, could'nt recall what i have done for the past weeks or worse, past few days. Perhaps things have been moving too fast.

Lets see, on 31 dec we had Service. So great to see our new believers and west people. I've missed the Christmas services due to the world of Narnia. Fancy missing Christmas Service! We then had a thanksgiving dinner with DMM. Too bad Jency wasnt there. Oh yar.. Joyce wore skirt.. hehee.. and i think she looks really good. After DMM, we went to catch the movie, Narnia with many people. I think we bought 20 tickets. The movie was pretty good, motivate me to want to read the book. We ended the show at 2am?

On New Year's day, i went to Shirls place to eat, play Risk and play mahjong. I swear not to sit beside dewen in the future. He can read my tiles and never "feed" me with the tiles i want. We made a mac donalds delievery order and ended the game at 6.30am.

The following day, i was a good girl and went lunch with my mom. I really appreciate my mom. Although she can be quite naggy at times ;) i know that she loves the family dearly. Haiz, i've noticed that she has aged again. She has eye bags and looked more haggard than before. I am really concern for her health, her work requires her to stand alot and her diet is so unhealthy. I dont know how i can help her and how i can bring her back to God. Oh God.... please please ...

Then shirl's dmm had a thanksgivings dinner at Tamar's place. There was a great deal of food and the sharing was deeper than ever. Went home at 4.30am. Had trouble waking up for work but made it nevertheless. During lunch time, i decided to watch a teaching from our founder. It was good listening to the fundamentals of God's word once again.

Havent had time to do a thorough evaluation of 2005 or 2006 resolution. But i have to make time for this. Hmm.. i think it i need time to sort out my thoughts and feelings. After all i am a human and not a machine.. however a doer i am..

oh 30 dec was my dear sister's birthday! The one in the center is my cousin.

my family :)